Being me

It's a lean day at work and I am in Christmas-vacation-mood already. So was browsing through some famous people's blogs and it amazes me to see how wonderful this medium is. It just connects one-to-one and more than reading about the rich and famous in newspapers, it's nice to read their blogs and know directly from them. However, I still think these blogs are edited et al.
But what was fun was that the day I met Amitabh Bachchan in Agra, he blogged about the whole episode... and I showed it to my brother (who follows AB's blog), so it was a great relating my visit with it.
I just finished reading some posts on Shilpa Shetty's blog who got married yesterday and it was nice to read how she felt some days before the event and everything. Though her's isn't such a buzzing blog. There are a few other celeb-blogs that I read sometimes, like the writer Meenakshi Reddy Madhavanof the You Are Here-fame.

Anyhow!

Pondering some more about the concept of blogging, specifically in relation to me, it's truly amazing how I can disconnect myself from anything and everything around to just focus on writing here. Like right now, I am in my office and everyone around is working (at least that's how it appears) and I am so off it all. all I want to do is write-write-write in here! (And I had an early morning today and did quite some work, seems like I am done for the day; Lol).

Blogging basically it seems is an addiction--Period.

So some more about me... It was a fun weekend, though it was only a one-day off. But I did make most of it. Went to watch Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahani with Nit. Despite the film being quite old, we had to buy tickets in black for a house full show! But the film is worth a watch, especially for its music.
For me of course, it became an affair... And how!

So what happened is...We were just our normal-selves, watching the film and laughing our guts out. To my surprise Nit was a little quieter than usual (and he definitely looked great dressed in a blazer and his new spects that suit him well!) and I was wearing jeans and college sweat shirt (because this cinema is just next to my house and we had no plans but to just watch the film and be back)... And skipping a lot of details he said something which has left me feeling much pretty and much smile-y :) (Geeeee *blush* *blush*)

Would sure mention the sms he sent me after dropping me home-- "To be honest I am seriously in love with you. I wish you to be my gf and future wife. Take it seriously."

OK, OK, don't start jumping! This isn't the first time he has said this to me... but the way he did this time made me feel like... Like I was being lifted a few inches above the ground and like I was gliding! (Geeeee *blush* *blush*)

As a reply to his sms, I just poured my heart out. There was nothing much I could have said to him. I do want to be in a relationship and he is REALLY a fun person and a great support. But to think about a man like 'that' and to take that big a step just doesn't seem to be happening right now.

Basically I am VERY confused about what I want and as long as this confusion lasts... I am standing still and watching the world move around me, until the dust settles and a clear view comes out.

...There is not much fear right now... there is just peace. And as my status message on facebook says right now -- "feels like thanking everyone around for making my life a joy ride. To each one who reads this... Thank you, you mean a lot."

Free ka gyaan on making the day brighter

I had the longest day-after-a-vacation possible today.

After five days of laziness, I subjected myself to waking early on a winter morning and going to work [I know! Cruel world!]. And when I returned back after 12 hours, I had to go vege-shopping and cook dinner and prepare the house for the night... so basically quite long.

But between all this, it turned out to be one of my happiest days.

I am not sure if this is PMS or just the affect of the vacation, but I feel SO myself. The day seemed to have had 48 hours and I have done SO much!

In this hyper-happy, hyper-active frame of mind, I thought I must share some gyaan that's on my mind... some simple ways to make one happy! {Try them, they are instant and they are terrific!}


** The simplest way for feeling better is to start picking up work that you have been procrastinating since long. This sounds stupid, but just decide to take out five minutes and set that book shelf right or put your shoes in place or make it to the tailor to give your clothes for stitching (that's what I did). It's amazing to see how your trouble becomes a thing of the past... and this can be just one thing at a time.

** GO GET A HAIRCUT! I know I sound stupid, but this is an open challenge... get a haircut and I can bet you will feel much better and much happier than you do now. It's just something to do with a change in yourself or something.

** GO TO SLEEP. It works like escapism. You can't battle it... so you shut your eyes to it. Just sleep! That ways you pass time and that mood-swing and by the time you wake up things around have changed and the atmosphere is different and so is your mood then!

** Spend time with family. This is my raam baan and it always works! See basically, family is one part of you that you cannot change. So even if you end up fighting with them, you may say nasty things or think nastier ones, but you wouldn't ever lose them! So it's the safest bet. And more often than not dad-mom will understand that you are upset and will be patient with you. Just try it out!

** COOK, CLEAN, WASH, WATER THE PLANTS, DO SOMETHING! Just do something physically exhausting... a tired body = a tired mind = no thinking = peace! Simple!

** Cut off from others. See if you try to depend on someone and the other person is unable to provide you the support you are seeking, it will only make you feel miserable. So switch off the cellphone and log out off messengers. That way there will always be the feeling that there might be friends trying to call you, wanting to be with you... and that feeling of being wanted works wonders!


This is real first-hand experience talking, well today I went to the tailor finally after procrastinating for a month, spent a lot of time with family keeping my cellphone switched off. I cooked, shopped and cleaned today!

Try any of this... It'll work! It'll work! It'll work!

PS -- Another way could be to read. Books, editorials, etc work!

Shim-Me

Finally, finally!

I never imagined four days of vacation at Shimla would pass so fast and I would have to struggle to find some time out to blog! But time did fly past and I am still sleep deprived, despite four days of nothing more than lazying around. And now I have to catch a train-back to Delhi in three hours! NO!!! Urgh!

Anyway, the trip was really off-the-usual considering I have not changed out of my pajamas and tee since the last four days and I simply camped in one room looking outside the window... watching trains come and go at the station below the hill and the days turn to night--the nights to days...PEACEFULLY!

There so much I read and so much I wrote in the last four days that makes me proud of myself. Stuff that might just get lost in my computer and be forgotten of, but it was like a whirlpool that had to be spilled out right then.

Strangely I have been numb in the head and heart considering there haven't been many phone calls or smses or emails, etc.

My much deserved break finally happened!

For all those who have not been to Shimla... there are certain must-dos. Like you must walk up the ridge and sit in the Church for some time. One must sit at the little-green-restaurant called Dim-Sum at Mall Road and sip some steaming soup (try the vegetable clear soup, my favourite!). One MUST go to the Dominoes' (pizza place) seating space upstairs that overlooks the Town Hall! One must buy some woolens and also eat a hot Honey Walnut Brownie at this new eat-out on Mall Road called Honey Hut.

Words can never define visual delights... It's a thing of one's own experience.

Now that time is running-running and I still have to wind up some shopping and stuff, I shall hurry away and get back here from the lesser-cold Delhi!

Have fun people... Life's REALLY good! ;)